Madame Butterflies

Everyone, in some small sanctuary of the self, is nuts.

—Leo Rosten

 

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Contemplating at the Window, Monterey Wharf June 2016 – Canon 7D
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“Madame Butterfly”, Santa Cruz, June 25 2016 – Canon 7D

 

I have come to realize —

Watching, admiring, or questioning people highlights my fears about them. It feels safer to observe the ones who wear their crazy on the outside, because I so despise deception. The walls people have built to protect themselves elaborate as SCUBA equipment fascinate me and I enjoy discovering in others slivers of myself that i have never fully accepted.

I have put myself—through a deep religious conversion—in order to learn to change my beliefs——-

 

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Don’t Stop Imagining

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Self Portrait in the Carmel Mission Museum after Mass 6/12/16

imagining = believing = being

Every time the shadow sneaks up on me I am surprised that it cannot die. What size blind spot have I built for it to bask in such darkness?  For this I find it necessary to keep writing. And I began talking to video cameras in private so that I grow quicker and make It die faster—or rather use It to my advantage—-

There are spaces. Spaces that are structures, to keep me strong and grounded; there are spaces between those that allow me moments of bliss and living, windows to fly in and out of;  the decapitated rose swears on a stack of bricks and construction zones around it develop into its templed reality.

Don’t stop imagining

the day that you do

is the day that you die

— [ youth lagoon ’17’ ]
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Pedestal & a Rose – Canon 7D

 ‘pedestal & a rose’ digital image for sale – $5 here and then slide it onto your desktop

(I’m trying something scary and new and risky again watch out)

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Construction Zone @ Carmel Mission –  6/12/16
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